It has been a while since my last Blog and I've been in something of a spiritual bog. My mind hasn't opened up as much as I'd wanted. Certainly not as much as the few days after I started this Blog. At that point, everything came rushing at me and writing was quite easy. Then I returned to work in the northern Alberta oil sands region and the spark left me. It's difficult trying to recapture something that intense, when you are living and working in this environment. I guess this is where I should be reading my little companion the Power and taking note of the lessons there in! However, today I actually feel like putting something down, so I'll see how this goes!
During several conversations and chats on Skype that I had with Gemma, the name Jay Atkinson and Solomon kept coming up. I'm not even going to try and describe what Jay actually does. Suffice to say, I would recommend going to her link on my Blog and take a look for yourself. In very basic terms Jay channels vibration energy! In much the same was as Esther channels Abraham, Jay channels Solomon. I'll leave it at that, but please please visit Jays site to learn more. While I was still away from home, I felt this growing compunction to write to Jay. I don't know why, or what I would say to her. I just needed to write. When I did, it was like writing to an old and dear friend - it was just so natural and free flowing. I can't remember quite what I said, but there was a lot of it! Those of you who know me, would say that is pretty normal......!
Jay took a little while to respond, but when she did, it was an absolute deluge of information! The more I read the four full pages of text, the more I kept seeing things in there. Things that Jay would certainly not have known about and it was all right there on the pages of her email. I don't want to share the whole email, it was both long and personal, but there is one small part I would like to share, because it quite shocked me. It read, 'Those around you have been a little concerned also, as they are feeling that it is somehow their responsibility to make you feel better but as you know, this is not so. Now when I read that for myself, it did not have a big impact, it felt like a pretty general statement. However, when I read the email out to Wendy, she was nodding furiously and saying 'yes'! I stopped reading and Wendy said that is almost exactly how she feels, that it was somehow her responsibility to make me feel better. I'm not talking in physical terms, but in general spiritual terms. I had been feeling very up and down for quite a while. Jays message from 'source' explained that this was quite normal and big changes were ahead for me. That didn't stop Wendy feeling it was her responsibility to make me feel better. I was quite struck by the accuracy in this part of the message from 'source' through Jay.
There was very much more in the email from Jay, all of it quite exciting for me. The biggest lesson I think I received was listen to myself more, trust what I hear myself saying or feeling. The good old 'sixth sense' or what ever you like to call it. I am slowly learning to trust that part of me, which I have not always trusted in the past. How many times do we have that 'gut feeling' about something, but take a different path. Only to find later that we were right in the first place. I see smiling nodding faces! I've been no different, now 'source' was telling me to listen closer and trust what I heard. That is so hard to do when you have been 'deaf' for so long, but I'm getting better. Recently my daughter has been looking for a house, and I've offered some 'gut feelings' on some of her choices. It has been fun to work with her and just let myself go, and say what I feel. In each case I was absolutely right about the property. When she sent me a picture of her last selection, I knew this was the one. The day later she agreed to the lease. We were both quite excited.
At the end of Jay's email, she left Solomon, and spoke as Jay once again, this time in a totally different style and language. Again, I'm not going to print Jay's comments as they were personal. However, toward the end of the email, Jay said I should 'hang onto my hat matey, you are gonna fly'. In a later email, Jay said that she was an Owl, and asked, "what bird are you"? The very first thing that came into my head was Eagle, a Bald Eagle..... When I read the email toWendy and came to Jay's question, before even finishing, she interrupted me with, "Eagle". I repeated the exercise with Gemma. Her response was aslo an Eagle. Interestingly though, Gemma's animal totem is an Eagle Owl, thereby linking the three of us! It was Gemma who also pointed out that the RAF crest that I proudly wore for twenty four years, also contains an Eagle. So I have had an eagle near by my whole life. I immediately adopted the Eagle as my totem. In a later conversation with Jay, she actually said Bald Eagle, which was the initial picture I had received. So there you have it, this is why a beautiful Bald Eagle appears in my Blog and I'm now learning to spread and fly on my Eagle Wings.
In Jays message from 'source', I was told to be ready for big changes in my life and this would happen quite soon. When you hear that sort of message, it makes you want to head off and pack your bags so to speak. I've never been a patient person, so waiting for a big event will be torture for me - well, it would have been should I say. I feel something will happen in the spring time and I believe I have seen the 'pointers' so to speak. We are privileged to live out in the country in a pretty sparsly populated area. At the back of our house is an old farm pond, almost dried up now. The Bullrushes tell you there is water there - not much it has to be said. Each spring that we have been in the house, two pairs of Red Tailed Hawks return to raise their brood. I first became aware of them when all the Gophers in the area headed for their many holes! I've watched these beautiful birds for hours, rising on the hot air thermals. Climbing from tree tops just above the pond, too hundreds of feet high - circling, circling. They go as suddenly as they arrive, but I know they will be there again next spring. I think that the arrival of these beautiful raptors, will signal a time for me to truly spread my wings. I guess we will have to wait for the warm spring sunshine to find out!
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